AUGH how time flies

WOW. i am sorry i had no clue it'd been so long since i updated.
But things have beeen so busy! Work school, work.
Graduating college was amaZing and took a few weeks to sink in.
now i'm busy working and saving for a new car as my old one got totaled in june.

Been writing furiously, finished 3 stories, and another. working on several new projects at a time. nope i won't be postin them here, you'll have to wait and see ;)

i hope everyone out there is well.

got myself a man, and his bday happens to be the day before mine :) and ours are both coming up, so we're going to dinner to celebrate together this saturday evening.

much love!
-AFEA

My sucky week

Well, it started out well enough, made a new friend, found a new love interest......then along with the weather, things took a turn for the awful.
First the friend cancels hang out time, and then decides I'm too pushy b/c i like chatting once a day.....um guess what? we talked til 1 am for 4 days in a row, and i wasn't the one who started it.....


-AAG

Back to december

I think about the summer all the beautiful times, i watched you laughing from the drivers' side, and realized i loved you in the fall. But then the cold came, the dark days, i gave you all my love and you gave me was goodbye.
You haunt my every thought, my dreams, my life, awake or sleeping,
i wish every day for the chance to win back your good graces, or to go back in time and change it, but i can't.
Some day I'll move on, but until then, I love you so much, and wish you would forgive me for that meager crime.
Love makes people do crazy things, and thats the only reason what happened happened.
I'm eternally sorry, and regret losing you every day.


-Much Love from the one you know not of anymore,
-AAG

Letter to my ex-friend

Dear friend,
You haven't got a clue how much I regret our friendship ending.
I hate myself everyday for breaking the red string in affect.
Everyday I feel guilt and sorrow about it.
Yet I know you feel nothing.
You've dismissed me as the enemy. When it was really a differing of opinon.
Please forgive me, and unfortunatly you kinda should apologize too.
Your words were hurtful, and they haunt me all the time.
If we could make up, and go back to the way we were, i'd give up anything.
If I could re-live 2010, I would take everything back, and you'd still love me like a sister.
I miss you so much.

-Sincerely,
Heather A.

My life is now a taylor swift song

Cause I go back to december all the time.
I'm sorry....It turns out freedom ain't nuthin but missin you, wishing i'd realized what I had when you were mine.
Oh well I guess. I saw 4 to 5 shooting stars this weekend on my retreat, perhaps some of my wishes will come true :\
Or not...


As always mi amors,
-Much Love
-AAG

What are you humming?

You asked me this last evening. I died again inside knowing you ask merely out of curiousity and nothing more. I reply how its merely a song I just heard on the radio. The truth is, its the song that describes our whole relationship.
I have come to truely adore you, and love you, and you are wonderful and nice, yet, are anothers.
I feel terrible for having these feelings, after all, its half cheating. I wouldn't want to find out some prissy tart had her eyes on my boyfriend, just because he's nice to her at work.
Dam it all. I can't help it.
You're wonderful, and nothing is set in stone til the wedding vows.
And even then, I would consider going and living out taylor swifts song, 'Speak Now'.
So this new years eve, raise a glass, knowing somewhere out there, this young woman loves you like she's never loved before.
Have a great new years eve my dear readers.
Here's to wishes coming true, and karma working out for the best.
Fate will always will out.
-Much Love
-AAG

Growl.

Partly because i just watched Vampires Suck, and that jacob is just as yummy-cute.
Partly because I'm sad about mi amor, not. umm anyway, He looked absolutely fierce today, In the straight sense.
Black chefcoat like a ninja, which he was for halloween :)
and he's just too darn nice to me. I was seriously shaking the few times i walked in the kitchen, just seeing and being around him. I'm going crazy. I really really like him. <----understatement of 2010.


I'm thinking perhaps he is single, and just never gets on fb to change his status. So.....stealthy heather is gonna try and ask about his gf.
He actually didn't spend christmas with her, or his family, he was working!
Anyway, don't get whiny about my whining. this is my diary, so there.
So here's hoping next year is a great year, I won't see ya'll till prolly next monday :) Retreat and work till then. Much love darlinks!!

Jk.
-Much Love
-AAG

P.s. since no-one reads this, I guess saying much love is dumb. But a girl can dream :)...that someone cares that is.