What are you humming?

You asked me this last evening. I died again inside knowing you ask merely out of curiousity and nothing more. I reply how its merely a song I just heard on the radio. The truth is, its the song that describes our whole relationship.
I have come to truely adore you, and love you, and you are wonderful and nice, yet, are anothers.
I feel terrible for having these feelings, after all, its half cheating. I wouldn't want to find out some prissy tart had her eyes on my boyfriend, just because he's nice to her at work.
Dam it all. I can't help it.
You're wonderful, and nothing is set in stone til the wedding vows.
And even then, I would consider going and living out taylor swifts song, 'Speak Now'.
So this new years eve, raise a glass, knowing somewhere out there, this young woman loves you like she's never loved before.
Have a great new years eve my dear readers.
Here's to wishes coming true, and karma working out for the best.
Fate will always will out.
-Much Love
-AAG

Growl.

Partly because i just watched Vampires Suck, and that jacob is just as yummy-cute.
Partly because I'm sad about mi amor, not. umm anyway, He looked absolutely fierce today, In the straight sense.
Black chefcoat like a ninja, which he was for halloween :)
and he's just too darn nice to me. I was seriously shaking the few times i walked in the kitchen, just seeing and being around him. I'm going crazy. I really really like him. <----understatement of 2010.


I'm thinking perhaps he is single, and just never gets on fb to change his status. So.....stealthy heather is gonna try and ask about his gf.
He actually didn't spend christmas with her, or his family, he was working!
Anyway, don't get whiny about my whining. this is my diary, so there.
So here's hoping next year is a great year, I won't see ya'll till prolly next monday :) Retreat and work till then. Much love darlinks!!

Jk.
-Much Love
-AAG

P.s. since no-one reads this, I guess saying much love is dumb. But a girl can dream :)...that someone cares that is.

Yo te amo.

And don't give me crap for the spanish. What I'm trying to say is because I love you (dear reader) so, I'm going to let you in on the webs best kept secret.
I am officially addicted to---no, no, not crack, tvtropes!
I have spent much time and energy reading it, busted a few lungs from laughing, and consquently burned some holiday calories, and my symptoms even have their own page.
Addicted to tvtropes. Signs you are addicted, spending 7+ hours reading, without knowing, thus assuming you entered a time warp without your own knowledge. Or, the fact you followed so many links opening so many tabs your computer imploded....now just kidding! Obviously mine didn't as I am here blogging to you faithfully.
So, go read til your brain becomes mush, or some other gross substance.
-You know you love me,
-kidding. You know I hate gossip girl *fingers crossed*
-Much Love
-AAG
P.s. to that special someone, today someone said as I lamented the fact of your non-singleness, girlfriends aren't forever. No kidding. But it makes me feel okay-r to know that though you fall short of perfection to me merely because of your unsingleness, there is hope. So in case you ever read this, I love you my dear leprechaun chef :)
Inside joke, that until we're ever a couple, you'll never get.
The end.....or is it?
That's a 'tv trope' btw :D

I am officially anti-social

People are annoying, to be blunt.
I give a thought on something I'm passionate about, and what do they do?
Laugh at me, mock me, and generally piss me off.
So sorry for being such a downer on Christmas, but seriously people,
If I wanted your opinion, I'd ask for it.
So shut up.
By the way, to that special someone who was the only recipient of a handmade with care Christmas card, catered to your career, I love you!
Well....I like you alot, and I hope this next year will bring happiness to you and yours!

Much Love dear readers!
-AAG

Chwistmas chwistmas time is here...

So its that time of year, time to hang up some lights, and put up the tree. I am now hanging with the 'folks of my dad's. They are crazy, but i love 'em.
I am still in daily contact with friends, b/c I'm a tech junkie :P but you love me.
Anyone who says that Christmas time is dumb, or doesn't like it because it reminds of you of tragedy, eventually, you've gotta move on.
So be cheerful, heck i am, and i've suffered more heartache this time of year, than i would wish on my worst enemy.
Spread the love, and make the yuletide ga- er..happy.

-Much Love
-AAG

Love, why do you hate me so?

Ok, I like this guy at work.
Great today i find out he's got a girlfriend.
My life officially sucks.
This is like the 1000000th time this has happened.
Darn it guys, if you're not single, don't be so dang nice and approaching flirty ok?
Thanks from us single girls.



ROWWWWR.
I'm so mad and sad and just pissed in general.


-Much Love to my readers though, and Merry Christmas.
-AAG

Much a happening tonight

So for the protection of the non innocent...I shall merely say drama around friends sucks.
Especially at a party.
Anyway, met many nice new people, and a question, why do guys with girlfriends tend to be more flirty??? It's confusing just fyi.
Tonight is the total lunar eclipse, I'm kinda excited :)
Even though I'm a bit dizzy from lack of sleep, only 4 last night and no breaky, then tonight I'll be getting about 6 :\ and I do have work....
Seriously.....I'm tired of waiting for love. I don't want to wait till I'm 30 to fall in love and get married.
I'm ready now. Just fyi universe.
I'll be so much happier then, and it'll be easier to overlook some people's discrepencies. However you spell it....
And I got a job offer of sorts for next year. Scary b\c I only just started my job, and I don't want to leave it yet.
The people are wondeful and I have a possible love interest (if this were a movie)
I'm such a sap. Crying while listening to taylor swift's enchanted. Wishing it'd be true for me.
So in other news, inception is the number 1 movie on imdb's top 25. 100 million people voted :D
I hate having to be the noble one, I have feelings too, I want closure, but it involves tearing a wound open possibly.
Darn my unconfrontational-ness... sorry to be so emotional, but heck, its in the title of the blog, you were warned.
All zero of you.
-Much Love my dear no readers
-AAG

Wow. I'm so lucky.

Ok so at work I like this chef, and today, I walk in, bam! He got a haircut, and I have to say he looks 10x hotter :)
Plus this one guy who's usually on call, was there.
Turns out I met him at a swim party way back when. I never forget a face. Or name.
And he was the cutest guy at the party, lol :)
So yeah, this lucky gal got to do sidework with him.
Mmhmm envy me.
So, anyway, here I go breaking my vow of silence til Monday :P
Heh.
-Much Love my dear readers,
-AAG

rest assured, i have a heart

I'm an absolute mess. Track #12 on the inception soundtrack is just so beautiful, and emotional, I'm in tears everytime I hear it. It's so perfect. I agree with the youtuber who suggested it be played in every airport, this made cry harder too. Can you believe it?
I also cry as soon as I picture myself at the airport running into the arms of a man who once knew me.
But now he hates me, and yet, I still love him. It hurts me terribly to know someday he'll marry a girl, and she won't be me.
I think the day that happens, I'll die a bit inside.
I want this soundtrack for christmas Santa, if only as a poor substitute for my true love who won't ever see me the same again.
I am still in tears, oh that I won't fall asleep crying again.

-Much wetness
-AAG
P.s. I love you too, all zero of you. <3

REDs

So my dear readers, I just saw REDs and I have to say, I liked it. I've always been a bruce willis fan, and anything with him is usually good, with a couple exceptions.
Anyway, it was funny, very action packed, and did I mention based on a DC comic?
Yah. And it had Bones from the new star trek as the cia dude after them.
And my dear Julian McMahon as the vice president.
I'd vote for that, if you get my drift ;)
So, my advice, go see it in your nearest dollar theater, or buy it as soon as it comes out, it's a keeper.
Also, I won some orange bath salts the other day, now that its finally the weekend I can't wait to try 'em.
Even though I have to work tommorow.
So loves, til Monday :)
-Much Love
-AAG

Inception....and why it needs an award.

I am yet again stunned by the magnificence which is Inception. Wow. I literally do now understand watching it, is like being in a dream... I was just 'awakened', to attend to life, and i feel a sense of loss, and I have to say I can't wait to try the Apple Application. Thank you Christopher Nolan

And I am on the side of believing the spinner was going to topple. I know, there's many who'll argue, but in a dream it remains steady, and at the end, it was wavering...I know the clothes of the children were the same, but, actually they weren't. There were subtle differences, the girl's hair, the white shirt under the pink jumper, the boy's hair longer, perhaps those were favorite outfits, and they aged, yet kept them. In the end, it's a fascinating and wonderful movie. I also adore the soundtrack, and wonder if when listened to solo, it would make the listener fall asleep... something to experiment with, and if it doesn't, at least you've got a great soundtrack :)




Please, please, please go give it a shot, you'll thank me later.
-Much Love
-AAG

Physics and Tron Legacy

So I've been informed, (after thinking all week I'd be going to see Tron) That since RED's is at the dollar theater now, we're going to see that, instead of tron.
thanks....


Physics went well, I actually understood most of it today, and spanish was awful as usual, I just don't learn languages well, except english.

Anyway, no work today or tomorrow, so I'll be chill,
Be sure to have fun at Tron my dear readers, while i suffer in the crappy falling apart dollar theater, surrounded by coughing people, crying babies and all manner of unpleasantness.

-Much Love
-AAG

82 in physics!

It seems the faster i work on it, the better grades i get. Usually i dread it, because it used to take 2 hours or so, but now for 2 days I've set a 30 minute timer, and only gone 2 or 3 minutes over, but get basically done, then it takes maybe 15 minutes to correct. Then I'm like, wow. Now what?
I get on my computer of course! Heck, 30 free minutes is like finding gold in your backyard to me.
I do the dishes, listening to my ipod at the time, and think, boy i can't wait til i can do this without having to worry about dumb school to have to get back to.
This summer can't come fast enough. Today i roughed out the plan for my book.
It's not going to be one long droning novel, instead, it'll be 4 short novellas, each pertaining to an aspect of love.

Not going to say much more, I don't want to jinx it, or anything, but i've got the 4 plots fleshed and ready to write once i get a chance to have 10 hours a day to devote to writing....not 'write' now unfortunately.

The weather is weird, cooler in the house than outside, and I can't help but feel this is the calm before the storm, aka, 12 inches of snow are right around the corner, and with that, the loss of power for 24+ hours bleh.

Hope you are all well my dear readers, and i wish you happy snow, sticky enough to make snowmen with, yet not so heavy as to knock down power lines!

-Much <3
-AAG

Sha-zam! Hypocrit time :)

So I changed this whole blog to be a diary, but heck, what do i think of first, Reviewing the lovely Taylor Swift's newest cd :)

So here goes...

Mine-When i first saw the video, i was like, aw cute, but it's been done. eh! I later listened again and decided, hey this sounds like me, picturing the whole future together, and yet still unsure about jumping headlong into it. This song is catchy, and cute.

Sparks Fly-This song is about liking the bad boy, knowing he's bad for you, yet you still fall for him, crazy girl you! It's happened to everyone, and this song is great, and it's yet another keeper for swifty fans

Back to December-Hoo boy! This song relates to me for sure, and the only exception is, its more like Back to October, it made me cry the first time i heard it. It's about regrets, knowing you've broken things past fixing, and wishing you could fix it anyway, it's sad, and true for pretty much everyone.

Speak Now-Title song, and fantasy of all of us rejected girls. We think, bah, he'll never marry someone other than me, and then bam! We're hearing about the wedding, going, WTH? Why didn't i get invited? This song is about going to the wedding, and standing up, you know he loves you, yet he's being pushed into this wedding to some brat. I do know the feeling, I had a dream of my someone marrying another, and I explain to my friends why I'm crying, and they all look horrorstruck. That's how i feel, and this song is about stopping the worst from happening!

Dear John-ah, which one of you knew Taylor was dating John-the-creep-Mayer? Zero? Ditto.
I had no idea, but anyway, this song is truely for him alone, but its applyable to any girl who's ever fallen for the older, womanizing type. You really aren't anything more than another notch on his bedpost, that's the cold truth.

Mean- this song is basically talking about how any one who bullies you is gonna regret it when you get famous! Ha, this won't obviously happen for us all, but at least Taylor got to say her piece.

Story of Us- The song about lost love....oh wait, they're all about it! Anyway, it's about losing touch with someone you used to know so well, the story is going no where, and is becoming a unhappy story

Never Grow Up- the song about the innocence of youth, wishing to stay little and that life would always be simple. I can't disagree with that wish.

Enchanted-You know the feeling of seeing someone across the crowded room at a crappy party, then all the room goes silent, and then they look up and see you, walk over and start to flirt. No? Well that's what this song is about, first sight interest, and the follow up of perhaps maybe we'll see each other again?

Better Than Revenge-heh-heh, this song happens to be about a real person, and i love it. Plus it really reminded me of Paramore, anway, its about Camilla Belle, the b**** who stole Joe Jonas from Taylor. This is the payback song, and it's way overdue. Honest opinion, I think Taylor was the reason Joe left her, but thats just me. She's a bit insecure and clingy, but i do wish they'd make up and get back together *sigh*

Innocent-this song gives me goosebumps.. It's merely talking about how you can do something wrong now, but yet you knew 10 months ago, you'd abhor that kind of behavior. like what have you become? It's a scary and sad song, and true. But this is talking to someone who's not yet crossed over, and still young and simple.
Haunted-This song is about being left, and still feeling the whole where this person used to be.

Last Kiss- Sorry to rush to this one, but i love it so much. I got goosebumps reading the lyrics, before hearing the actual song. Then the worst, tears. It so tore me up, because it so reminded me of what happened a year ago now. It's totally about the Taylor/Joe breakup, which saddens me more than any celebrity thing. Because i see them as real people, and they are truly hurt, no matter what they do, date other people, write mean songs about each other, when it comes down to it, they're just another couple of broken hearts like you or me once were. I cry, b/c this song is truly haunting, and can really be about any couple that broke up before they had run there course of the relationship. The best thing, is this is the longest song on the album, and i just listen to it and cry, this song really gets to you.

Long Live-a strong ending to the album, sad, but upbeat. The best line is, if you have kids, and they point to a picture of me, please tell them my name. This song is about a couple, that had there height of fame, and or recognition, but things went wrong and they had to part, so thats why she says, long live those days!

Hope you get a chance to check it out!
-Much Love
-AAG

So, today I must catch you up on everything.....

I really do work as a waitress, Even though it's truthfully a recent thing, though my profile says its been for a while.
And I must say, I am quite happy with it, though its rumored people only last about 6 months unless they truly are stellar employees.

Part of the enjoyment of work is my great co-workers, though they come from different backgrounds than me, we all get along well.
Most of the guys are very funny, and the girls are very sweet, insisting on doing a secret Santa gift exchange, which is always fun.
One of the cooks is quite awesome, and i find myself wondering what it'd be like for him to cook for me....if we were married of course.
Yet I'm hesitant about asking if he's single and all that rot, b/c i feel wierd about the girl going first and all that. After all, girls aren't supposed to ask out guys, its not a Sadie Hawkins dance everyday.


But enough about my romance troubles. Considering what I've been through, broken engagements, broken hearts, I think my armour is tough enough, and Hopefully, he'll stop being so nice, and funny, and sweet, and get himself a girl with less baggage.

And now my dear readers, I must tell you some exciting news, I am in pre-production for writing a novel, this summer i have vowed to spend as much free time as possible on it. And i have a publisher, so it'll be ready to go hopefully in a minimum of 24 months...very cool huh?
Soon you'll see my name in print and say, I read her blog before she was a famous author....except, no one will say that, as no one reads this blog :/

One more thing i must mention,
Movie-wise, there is no movie i reccomend higher than Inception,
I loved it, saw it twice in theaters, and Bought the Best Buy exclusive blu-ray with a very cool shooting script.
Please check it out when you can.

As always,
-Much Love
-AAG

So my dear audience, of which there are zero...

I have decided reviewing crap is pointless, as i am way to busy to keep up with all the media and things. Plus the stuff i watch and listen to would bore you...not that anyone is reading this to be bored.
So now this blog is going to be my daily diary.. :)



-Much Love
-AAG